Can’t sleep

I don’t really have anything else to say right now. My wife and I decided to go see Pirates in an attempt to get my mind of some of the things I’ve been thinking about for the last few days. I’m glad we went. I enjoyed the movie much more than I thought I would, and it did help keep me distracted for a couple of hours.

Now I’m just back to those thousands of things running through my head all at once. I’m exhausted. I really just want to get some rest, but sleep won’t come. Instead I just lay there watching the blinking red light on our caller ID box in the other room, with my head full of all these thoughts.

I’ve decided it might help get them out of my head (at least for a while) if I get them into a word document. I’ve made a start, but there’s not much structure to it, and what I’ve written so far is riddled with incomplete sentances and only marginally cohearant thoughts. The topics jump around widly and the individual trains of thought are hard to follow. At least what’s on the screen resembles my current state of mind.

I think I’ll end up posting some of this stuff, but I want to try to get it cleaned up and organized first. I can already see two or three entries at the very least jumbled together on my screen. There may be more, but I’ll really only know for sure once I get more out of my head and into the document.

Would someone please tell my internal monolouge to shut the hell up for a few hours so I can get some rest? That pesky little voice in my head isn’t listening to me, and I’m starting to get tired of listening to it.

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3 thoughts on “Can’t sleep”

  1. I personally find writing, in any form, does help me to work on problems. So I would say keep writing.

    But interferring with sleep sucks!


  2. Terson to Internal Monologue: Shut Up! But only until Hooloovoo has had a nice lazy morning 🙂

    You asked.

  3. Hool, I don’t know if this would help you or not, but a close friend of mine lost her mother in a very quick and violent way as well. She found a workbook of some sorts at the bookstore that she used to use to help her cope with it. Apparently, it helped a lot! Maybe you could check on that.

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